The first and only picture taken before things went bad.McKel taking a turn...
My dad getting ready for the next contraction.
Every twenty minutes my nurses would have to come do neural tests...Simple things like following her finger with my eyes, pushing against her, pulling her towards me and few other test were not so easy to do. Scared me.
Dad taking a turn...
Paul taking a turn...
I wont post pictures of the actual birth so I don't give anyone night mares but together we got her here! The best pictures are on my moms camera I'll have to post them when I get them from her.
Daddy went with her to get cleaned up and to take all the little test. He took all the pictures and picked out her first bow:) He is one proud daddy!!
Two week ago I got a call at 5:15am saying I needed to be to the hospital between 6:00 and 6:15 to be induced. I was so excited, nervous and ready to meet our baby girl! We got there at 6. Mike met us there to take Connly. We waited for almost an hour and I was starting to get nervous because my doctor told me at my last doctors appointment to hurry in right when they call because if someone goes into labor and they need more beds they would have to give my room to them since I was getting induced. Two girls came in in labor. Two other girls came in to be induced. I was started to get a little sad thinking I might get sent home. After what seemed like forever they called my name to look over papers and then we got set up in our room. Yay!! It's really happening!! We got all hooked up they checked me and I was still at a three but pretty thin. They started the pit and after a little while broke my water. Things were going so smooth. We were all putting in our guesses of when she'd make her way into this world. I think we call guessed before seven pm which was music to my ears because I was in labor with Connly for almost 24 hours so anything less than that sounded awesome! I got up to 20 the max in patocin and was started to feel some real big pains but Paul, Mom and Mckel were doing pretty good at making me laugh and keeping my mind off it. Soon enough I asked for the epidural. Dr Stephenson came in to put the epidural in. Right away I didn't have a good feeling about him. He seemed like he wasn't paying attention to what he was doing and wasn't really telling me what he was doing(with Connly the Dr told me everything and every step and what to expect) Mckel and my mom were on the couch and he was asking them why they weren't watching and why they looked so scared.Telling them how many he had done over and over again. I remember a pinch and then it felt like it went to far in. 30 seconds later from my feet to my face was numb. He was telling me to turn on my other side. I couldn't. I told him I couldn't. I started to feel really funny. I couldn't talk. My arms were starting to shake. I was trying so hard to tell them I didn't feel right but nothing was coming out. I could hear Dr Stephenson saying "Teisha open yours eyes!" "Teisha you've got to wake up!" but I couldn't. My mom was trying to tell them something was wrong. I remember Paul asking me if I was ok. I remember Mckel saying she shouldn't be numb already. Those were some of the last things I remember hearing. My mom said they were trying to tell her that I probably just didn't feel good but my family knew something more was wrong. My heart still looked good and so did the babies but I wasn't responding. Soon enough(not soon enough for Paul, my mom and Mckel) they realized something was really wrong.I was told my left side of my face started to sag. In about 30 seconds 40 nurses and doctors were in my room. No one knew what was wrong but they new it wasn't looking good. Paul during all craziness said he wanted to give me a blessing. One of the nurses said they didn't think they had time. Doctor Warner said we will do the blessing. Paul asked if the nurses desk had oil. Doctor Warner patted his pocked and said he had some(my mom said it was like he was ready and hoping someone would say I needed a blessing) During all this I wasn't there and don't remember anything that was going on but when Doctor Warner put his hands on my head I saw him(my eyes wouldn't open at this point) and heard him loud and clear and when Paul put his hands on my head I heard his blessing loud and clear as well then I was gone again. They rushed me down to get a Cat scan and a MRI. My mom said that 40 nurses and doctors were running behind my bed they about lost the computer off the desk but Doctor Warner caught it before it hit the floor. In the elevator I remember Paul crying and telling me I can't leave him. I remember him saying that him and our kids need me. That he couldn't do it without me. I wanted so bad to tell him I was trying not to leave but then like before I was gone again. At that point my heart rate went to 50. The baby was still fine. I remember hearing the baby is still doing good a couple times during all this. I think I kept hearing that for a reason.I remember them saying her poor husband. I remember in either the Cat scan or the MRI I couldn't breath it felt like my throat was closing and I already couldn't breath through my nose. Worst feeling in the world. I remember coming out and trying to get my arm up to tell them I couldn't breath but they thought I was trying to say my mouth was dry and kept saying your going to have a funny taste in your mouth but I couldn't breath but then I went out again. I remember starting to come to and feeling SO dizzy and they were rushing me back to my room. I remember coming around the corner and seeing my mom and dad. I'm pretty sure I said Daddy or at least I was trying to get something out. I started to come around more and they told me what happened. Dr. Stephenson put the epidural in too far and too high of a dose and a air bubble and medicine went straight to my brain and shut it down. They had never had that happen at Utah Valley. Dr. Warner said that in his 37 years of delivering babies he's never had that happen. He was not happy with Dr. Stephenson. My mom also broke it to me gently that they took my epidural out and that I couldn't get another one but they wouldn't be right by my side to help me get her here. I remember thinking I still feel funny and I'm too tired to do anything right now let alone have a baby natural. Luckily I was still at a 3 1/2. My brain was shut down from 1:30 til after five. Our little Ellie was great through the whole thing. What a miracle. Shes our little fighter. They let me rest for a little while but because my water had been broken we needed to get her here within so many hours. Dr. Stephenson came in to tell me it was a "mechanical error" I wasn't all there yet so I'm not sure what else he said but he was the last person I wanted to see. I was just glad I was coming back around. I've never felt my body shutting down like that and to say the least I was scared and I'm still scared.I had a bunch of doctors in and out checking things and doing little neural tests I think they were called. They started the pit. Again. Around 6:30- 7pm This time around I was really feeling things sooner than the first time around. I tried my hardest to keep calm and not cry. I knew if I told myself I couldn't do it I wouldn't be able to. When I was in labor with Connly my friend Trini that is a nurse told me and Paul about this pressure point trick. Paul would press hard on my knees and what she told me came to my mind and I'm so grateful she told me about that. Paul, my dad and Mckel would switch off doing this for HOURS. It helped take a little edge off. I know they thought they were going to break my legs off but they couldn't have pressed hard enough. My nurse had her baby natural and she told me that I was doing this the worst way possible... Natural on the pit. Most ladies that go natural don't get started and read books and take classed. I never planned for this so I did known of that. I had no choice but to go Natural at this point tho. She also told me what was going to happen and she was SO right. Until I was a six I was able to breath deep through the contractions that were seconds away from each other. Once I hit 7 I was angry and thought there is NO way I was going to be able to do this. The contractions were in my back and there barely was any space between them. Just when I thought it couldn't hurt worse the pain got lots lots worse. 7-10 I thought I was going to die. I felt the ring of fire and my body just took over I had no control. I was pushing before the doctor was even in there. Honestly I had no control my body just took over. I was screaming at this point. I can't explain the pain. I never thought she'd come out. I was almost standing/crawling up the bed my mom was trying to hold me down. Dr. Warner made it barely in time he flung the bed down and was telling me bum down bum down. With in seconds that felt like hours she was out but the pressure was still there. I was more than relieved when he slowly got the placenta out. Ellie Faye Hogue 7lbs. 6oz. 19 inches long born February 16Th 2012 @ 12:15 a.m. WE did it! She was here. Safe and was healthy and strong. Smaller than what I thought she would be(Connly was almost 9lbs.) Oh but am I so grateful she was on the smaller side now! I couldn't be more grateful for my family. I had a birthing team! Sounds funny. But I couldn't feel anymore blessed that they were by my side and cheered me on through it all. They never left my side. I couldn't have done it without them! Paul was so strong for me( I knew he was hurting as much as me)He had been been through a lot that day but he stayed strong. I love him even more than I did before and I didn't know that was possible. He also gave me one of the sweetest blessings I've ever had. My dad. I know he was meant to be in there. He was actually working in St. George and got a call from my mom that I went unresponsive and he needed to get there quick. He said he had big red going over 100. He has always been a great coach and he hasn't lost his coaching skills. I love that man. I LOVE that he was part of getting Ellie here. He also gave me a fathers blessing before giving birth and I know that helped in so many ways. My mom she knows me. She knew just how to break the news to me about giving birth natural. She kept telling me I could do it and breath so you don't pass out! ha Mckel never left my side either. She was there with Paul and my mom when everything was going good and witnessed it all go bad quick.She continually kept telling me I could do it when I was doubting myself! Mandee got a phone call to and made it up as I was coming back around. She will forever have nightmares about me giving birth;) She really wanted to leave the room but she stayed and helped me through! They all reminded me that I was doing it and that I could do it the whole time which I needed more than they know. I HAVE THE BEST FAMILY. They probably saw wayyy too much of me that day but they still love me and I'll forever be grateful for them for helping me get my baby girl here!I have a whole new level of love for each of them! Life is a gift and can be taken away so quick. I'm so grateful to be here. I'm so grateful for priesthood blessings. I'm grateful for our savior and for him letting me stay here to raise my kids with Paul. I know he lives and he watches over each of us. (I'm going to get My mom or Mckel to write down what happened while I wasn't there just to have it in my journal. Its hard to write down your birth story when you weren't there)
Paul taking a turn...
I wont post pictures of the actual birth so I don't give anyone night mares but together we got her here! The best pictures are on my moms camera I'll have to post them when I get them from her.
Daddy went with her to get cleaned up and to take all the little test. He took all the pictures and picked out her first bow:) He is one proud daddy!!
Two week ago I got a call at 5:15am saying I needed to be to the hospital between 6:00 and 6:15 to be induced. I was so excited, nervous and ready to meet our baby girl! We got there at 6. Mike met us there to take Connly. We waited for almost an hour and I was starting to get nervous because my doctor told me at my last doctors appointment to hurry in right when they call because if someone goes into labor and they need more beds they would have to give my room to them since I was getting induced. Two girls came in in labor. Two other girls came in to be induced. I was started to get a little sad thinking I might get sent home. After what seemed like forever they called my name to look over papers and then we got set up in our room. Yay!! It's really happening!! We got all hooked up they checked me and I was still at a three but pretty thin. They started the pit and after a little while broke my water. Things were going so smooth. We were all putting in our guesses of when she'd make her way into this world. I think we call guessed before seven pm which was music to my ears because I was in labor with Connly for almost 24 hours so anything less than that sounded awesome! I got up to 20 the max in patocin and was started to feel some real big pains but Paul, Mom and Mckel were doing pretty good at making me laugh and keeping my mind off it. Soon enough I asked for the epidural. Dr Stephenson came in to put the epidural in. Right away I didn't have a good feeling about him. He seemed like he wasn't paying attention to what he was doing and wasn't really telling me what he was doing(with Connly the Dr told me everything and every step and what to expect) Mckel and my mom were on the couch and he was asking them why they weren't watching and why they looked so scared.Telling them how many he had done over and over again. I remember a pinch and then it felt like it went to far in. 30 seconds later from my feet to my face was numb. He was telling me to turn on my other side. I couldn't. I told him I couldn't. I started to feel really funny. I couldn't talk. My arms were starting to shake. I was trying so hard to tell them I didn't feel right but nothing was coming out. I could hear Dr Stephenson saying "Teisha open yours eyes!" "Teisha you've got to wake up!" but I couldn't. My mom was trying to tell them something was wrong. I remember Paul asking me if I was ok. I remember Mckel saying she shouldn't be numb already. Those were some of the last things I remember hearing. My mom said they were trying to tell her that I probably just didn't feel good but my family knew something more was wrong. My heart still looked good and so did the babies but I wasn't responding. Soon enough(not soon enough for Paul, my mom and Mckel) they realized something was really wrong.I was told my left side of my face started to sag. In about 30 seconds 40 nurses and doctors were in my room. No one knew what was wrong but they new it wasn't looking good. Paul during all craziness said he wanted to give me a blessing. One of the nurses said they didn't think they had time. Doctor Warner said we will do the blessing. Paul asked if the nurses desk had oil. Doctor Warner patted his pocked and said he had some(my mom said it was like he was ready and hoping someone would say I needed a blessing) During all this I wasn't there and don't remember anything that was going on but when Doctor Warner put his hands on my head I saw him(my eyes wouldn't open at this point) and heard him loud and clear and when Paul put his hands on my head I heard his blessing loud and clear as well then I was gone again. They rushed me down to get a Cat scan and a MRI. My mom said that 40 nurses and doctors were running behind my bed they about lost the computer off the desk but Doctor Warner caught it before it hit the floor. In the elevator I remember Paul crying and telling me I can't leave him. I remember him saying that him and our kids need me. That he couldn't do it without me. I wanted so bad to tell him I was trying not to leave but then like before I was gone again. At that point my heart rate went to 50. The baby was still fine. I remember hearing the baby is still doing good a couple times during all this. I think I kept hearing that for a reason.I remember them saying her poor husband. I remember in either the Cat scan or the MRI I couldn't breath it felt like my throat was closing and I already couldn't breath through my nose. Worst feeling in the world. I remember coming out and trying to get my arm up to tell them I couldn't breath but they thought I was trying to say my mouth was dry and kept saying your going to have a funny taste in your mouth but I couldn't breath but then I went out again. I remember starting to come to and feeling SO dizzy and they were rushing me back to my room. I remember coming around the corner and seeing my mom and dad. I'm pretty sure I said Daddy or at least I was trying to get something out. I started to come around more and they told me what happened. Dr. Stephenson put the epidural in too far and too high of a dose and a air bubble and medicine went straight to my brain and shut it down. They had never had that happen at Utah Valley. Dr. Warner said that in his 37 years of delivering babies he's never had that happen. He was not happy with Dr. Stephenson. My mom also broke it to me gently that they took my epidural out and that I couldn't get another one but they wouldn't be right by my side to help me get her here. I remember thinking I still feel funny and I'm too tired to do anything right now let alone have a baby natural. Luckily I was still at a 3 1/2. My brain was shut down from 1:30 til after five. Our little Ellie was great through the whole thing. What a miracle. Shes our little fighter. They let me rest for a little while but because my water had been broken we needed to get her here within so many hours. Dr. Stephenson came in to tell me it was a "mechanical error" I wasn't all there yet so I'm not sure what else he said but he was the last person I wanted to see. I was just glad I was coming back around. I've never felt my body shutting down like that and to say the least I was scared and I'm still scared.I had a bunch of doctors in and out checking things and doing little neural tests I think they were called. They started the pit. Again. Around 6:30- 7pm This time around I was really feeling things sooner than the first time around. I tried my hardest to keep calm and not cry. I knew if I told myself I couldn't do it I wouldn't be able to. When I was in labor with Connly my friend Trini that is a nurse told me and Paul about this pressure point trick. Paul would press hard on my knees and what she told me came to my mind and I'm so grateful she told me about that. Paul, my dad and Mckel would switch off doing this for HOURS. It helped take a little edge off. I know they thought they were going to break my legs off but they couldn't have pressed hard enough. My nurse had her baby natural and she told me that I was doing this the worst way possible... Natural on the pit. Most ladies that go natural don't get started and read books and take classed. I never planned for this so I did known of that. I had no choice but to go Natural at this point tho. She also told me what was going to happen and she was SO right. Until I was a six I was able to breath deep through the contractions that were seconds away from each other. Once I hit 7 I was angry and thought there is NO way I was going to be able to do this. The contractions were in my back and there barely was any space between them. Just when I thought it couldn't hurt worse the pain got lots lots worse. 7-10 I thought I was going to die. I felt the ring of fire and my body just took over I had no control. I was pushing before the doctor was even in there. Honestly I had no control my body just took over. I was screaming at this point. I can't explain the pain. I never thought she'd come out. I was almost standing/crawling up the bed my mom was trying to hold me down. Dr. Warner made it barely in time he flung the bed down and was telling me bum down bum down. With in seconds that felt like hours she was out but the pressure was still there. I was more than relieved when he slowly got the placenta out. Ellie Faye Hogue 7lbs. 6oz. 19 inches long born February 16Th 2012 @ 12:15 a.m. WE did it! She was here. Safe and was healthy and strong. Smaller than what I thought she would be(Connly was almost 9lbs.) Oh but am I so grateful she was on the smaller side now! I couldn't be more grateful for my family. I had a birthing team! Sounds funny. But I couldn't feel anymore blessed that they were by my side and cheered me on through it all. They never left my side. I couldn't have done it without them! Paul was so strong for me( I knew he was hurting as much as me)He had been been through a lot that day but he stayed strong. I love him even more than I did before and I didn't know that was possible. He also gave me one of the sweetest blessings I've ever had. My dad. I know he was meant to be in there. He was actually working in St. George and got a call from my mom that I went unresponsive and he needed to get there quick. He said he had big red going over 100. He has always been a great coach and he hasn't lost his coaching skills. I love that man. I LOVE that he was part of getting Ellie here. He also gave me a fathers blessing before giving birth and I know that helped in so many ways. My mom she knows me. She knew just how to break the news to me about giving birth natural. She kept telling me I could do it and breath so you don't pass out! ha Mckel never left my side either. She was there with Paul and my mom when everything was going good and witnessed it all go bad quick.She continually kept telling me I could do it when I was doubting myself! Mandee got a phone call to and made it up as I was coming back around. She will forever have nightmares about me giving birth;) She really wanted to leave the room but she stayed and helped me through! They all reminded me that I was doing it and that I could do it the whole time which I needed more than they know. I HAVE THE BEST FAMILY. They probably saw wayyy too much of me that day but they still love me and I'll forever be grateful for them for helping me get my baby girl here!I have a whole new level of love for each of them! Life is a gift and can be taken away so quick. I'm so grateful to be here. I'm so grateful for priesthood blessings. I'm grateful for our savior and for him letting me stay here to raise my kids with Paul. I know he lives and he watches over each of us. (I'm going to get My mom or Mckel to write down what happened while I wasn't there just to have it in my journal. Its hard to write down your birth story when you weren't there)
